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And Here It Is

2011-12-18T01:34:00.001+08:00

My love. My all

The Wait

2011-10-26T15:26:00.002+08:00

Looks like my plan needed to be changed a bit.

The answer was "we need to wait and see", referring to my last post.

I promised myself I'll make it right this time around. I know you worth the wait. I know you do. And for that, I'll wait as long as it takes, until you say Yes or No.

I won't push you, no I won't.

If you say, I do, then I will give you my all, the way I never did before.

Believe

2011-10-25T13:44:00.001+08:00

I hope you will make me the happiest guy in the world, and make me believe in love, again.

I will never fail you, I promise.

Yes? No?

2011-09-24T08:47:00.002+08:00

Looks like my passion for blogging is knocked off dead.

Urgh. I used to love blogging so much. But now?

Anyway, my life now is a bit better than it was last year. At least I have great social life. I have great officemates, hella-fun housemates, and gila-gila buddies. Yea, I guess I'm in a good place now.

But I still haven't achieve my target.

Why oh why? Am I too comfortable of where I am now?

Is that it? Or I am simply not lucky enough. Sigh.

He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named

2011-07-13T19:21:00.003+08:00

Excited.

Tomorrow.

In 3D.

"Wow, it looks, umm, real!"

Yeay.

Father's Day Dedication

2011-06-19T11:07:00.001+08:00

Happy Father's Day to my Dad.

You taught me how live and let live. You show me how to survive and to strive. And I am where I am now because of you.

Lots of love.

Mother's Day Dedication

2011-05-08T20:15:00.003+08:00

Happy Mother's Day to my mum.

You bring me up to be the man I am now, and for that I am eternally grateful.

Love you. Always

A Love That Is

2011-05-04T22:34:00.001+08:00

Labuan Mari

2011-04-27T01:26:00.000+08:00

Is currently in Labuan. 10 hours to go to Sabah. Wheeee~!

I'm So Gonna Get You in the Face!

2011-04-24T17:27:00.003+08:00

kredit to Sid McCallum

Only one face came into my mind. Haha.

Aiyo

2011-04-23T18:09:00.002+08:00

=_="

I look nerd in this picture.

Happy Birthday To Me

2011-04-21T05:35:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me! Haha. Unfortunately currently I am on this vessel, 200km from nearest dry land. Booyah! Thanks for the well wishers in Facebook. Appreciate them, sorry couldn't reply every posts now. I will when I'm back.

Cheers!

#Trending

2011-04-17T17:16:00.002+08:00

Helloww, bizy kew? Sajew jeeww nak kacauw. Hiks!

#somalaysian

Note to Self

2011-04-17T08:50:00.001+08:00

When I'm back home, I must cut half of time I spent online, and spend the time with my family instead.

Miss my family so damn much.

I'm Just Saying

2011-04-17T01:15:00.002+08:00

It is fucking annoying to read a blog with background music.

You think I love Bieber as you do?! Geez!

Sapura3000 - Universal Studios

2011-04-16T21:52:00.004+08:00

Booyah~!

Last 3 weeks, me and Geng Mak Limah went for our company's trip to the ever huha-ed vessel of us, Sapura3000. Well, to tell you the truth, everyone was more huhas about the trip to Universal Studios Singapore lol.

We had so much fun OMG. Haha. From our office, there were only 3 guys, and *ahem* I was being appointed as the official escorts and photographer for the gang. Oh well, I can't complain but for sure it was a blast. And pssst maybe this October, we will go there again, fully sponsored! Yeay! Keep ma fingers crossed woot woot.

Here here, some of the glorious pics.

You will only see me in this, once!

Darker me. Sigh. I blame Pasir Gudang for this

Smoochies Dinosor~

Shrek-ish

Just a poser. Nothin' much.

Yippe, tix tix tix!

I like to move it, move it.

>_<

The one and only

Hi. I'm Adi

Cheers

Beyond Yourself

2011-04-03T18:25:00.002+08:00

I feel like I need to write this down.

Everyone feel sad every now and then. It is normal. What not normal is when you don't feel anything, then you are a freak yourself. Lol.

Okay, there are many ways to cope with sadness, and the feeling of unable to change anything, then you want to run away from all the problems that you find a quick way to make them magically disappear. Guess what, after you do that thing you do, the problems will still be there until you do something about it. Annoying much, no?

I always told myself if someone tries to bring me down. RAISE ABOVE THEM. It will piss them off, and I have the pleasure to live my life better than them. Instead of doing some self-destruct things that will only ruin myself, and further create problem on to myself.

Please, people will never leave you alone.

NEVER. EVER.

Piss them off with how well you live your life. And then you can keep on Ha-Ha on those pathetic we-got-nothing-to-do nobodies. Instead of giving them a show of how well you tear your life apart.

Find something to motivate you. The typical and oh-so-boring motivation is, your family. Yea, it is boring but it does work because who else in this world will let you go back to their good graces with all the cuts and bruises, and still love you, tend to you without any terms and conditions.

Find comfort with the Almighty. Its the only solace you have free of charge, and with no time limit.

Some of you may think, "Hey who are you to tell me all of these? You are not so perfect either" well mister, sorry to tell you if you are waiting for a perfect person to come in and knock the sense out of you, he will never ever come. I am writing all these, is also for myself what. Someday, down the line I might feel sad, and despair will come upon me. That is when I can reapply whatever shit I put down here, and make use of it. Not just the usual mambo-jumbos from self proclaimed "motivator" who can't even resolve issues with his own wife.

And to a very special someone, I assure you, you have me. Find me anytime, anywhere. And by all means I will tend to you and help in any way I can. I am not your mere good looking, funny boyfriend *ahem* but I am also your bestest friend who will help you in any way I can. Because I'm in this with all my heart. Rest assured.

Crazy

2011-03-31T21:07:00.003+08:00

I just bought a T-shirt worth RM90 which makes my tummy looks big.

I did that so I can motivate myself to go to the gym and work out as hard as I can so I will look good in it.

Yeah, thats the only reason.

^_^

Life (is short)

2011-03-30T20:21:00.002+08:00

For those who realize that they have gone astray (including me, ahem), keep in mind that life is short.

Sometimes life can play a cruel and dirty joke on you, that without you realizing it, you lost the very thing you thought is yours (at least) forever.

No one really knows whats gonna happen, even 5 minutes in advance. Plan may run amok. Future may seem distant. Life may seem empty. And its time to hold on to the very thing that is been true to you since ever; your faith.

I would like to express my sorrow to those who are affected by nature's wrath recently. And for those who lost their souls, may they rest in peace.

Quotable Quote

2011-03-27T22:37:00.001+08:00

People say you don't know what you've got till its gone. Truth is, you knew what you had, you just thought you'd never lose them.

-Twitter-

Give It To Me

2011-03-27T20:17:00.002+08:00

A month before my birthday, and I had rude awakening.

I'm still not the person I wanted to be.

I need to reposition myself, reassess, and try to improve. Yea comparing me now, and me a year ago, I did achieve some things. But still, they are still below par of what I was going for. Just earlier today, I met an old friend who was there when I don't know what to do, and gave away so many advice and views. Mostly because he is The Experienced Guy, and he also able to give view without that judgmental tone despite how ugly and wrong the things that I've done. He was telling me all these stories, and despite the "screening at the port" exercise we did *LOL* he did make me realize that, I've been living below my own expectation now.

In terms of relationship, my 22 months old relationship was ended in a quite bad way. Sometimes I think that it was meant to end because despite all the efforts, I was not happy being caged in a relationship where I am the victim, but made look like the pariah. Despite all the "I'm sorry"s I am still unable to find peace in my heart, since the cut was so deep, so hurtful, and all the 22 months worth of burden wer not able to got out from me since I've been keeping them for far too long.

But now, I meet a new person, who is beautiful in every possible way, who let me be who I am. And loves me for that.

For that, I thank you for saving me from all the misery, for all the efforts you did to make me happy. I will try my best to make us work. All the past mistakes, I learnt from them, and I will not repeat any of them with you. I may not the perfect boyfriend as defined in the dictionary, but I will make sure I'll be the best boyfriend you ever have.

Ok enough.

I need to review some drawings. If not my boss will get on my ass tomorrow.

Cheers

Poo Poo

2011-03-22T19:34:00.002+08:00

Haha I am, seriously not kidding, have no idea what to put in here. Maybe, just maybe. For the sake of writing something here.

I just came back from Pasir Gudang. 5 days. All I'm saying is, I'm glad I am The-Guy-In-The-Office. Hahaha. And oh, I am a zebra now. There goes my 4 months of intense body whitening effort.

And I had MAJOR panic attack there! OMG. Now is following whatever being told. Sigh. It was like, OMG OMG OMG! Good Boy mode ON!!

My life has been about work now. I guess thats all there is now. And damn I haven't been back home since Raya last year!! I don't care, come this April I want my three weeks leave. Muahaha.

Ok.

Now blur.

I think I used to have so much sense of humor in my posts back then.

Am asking myself. Where the Eff have you gone?!

Sheesh.

:)

2011-02-21T20:24:00.000+08:00

19 turning on 20.

Hugs and kisses.

Sipping Syzzurp In My Ride

2011-02-04T00:12:00.003+08:00

Ah I just can't help it but to shake my thing.

Today I took the leisure to stalk the so-called beautiful people in Facebook. Yes indeed they are beautiful and, yummy too **grrrr what's wrong with me?!** since I have time to kill. 4 days of holiday, yet I'm stucking myself indoor haha. I have my reasons, yeah I do.

I am thinking hard about where I am now. I asked for several opinions, and I'm not sure whether what they are saying are the words I want to hear, or words that I need to hear. A bit confused.

I always have trouble at making life changing decision. I always prefer to stay in my comfort zone.

But, am I sacrificing what I got, for the thing that doesn't necessarily better?

I guess I'll never know until I jump with both two feet.

Cheers

This Just In

2011-02-02T21:44:00.002+08:00

Sambil menunggu download map dota baru, aku ingin mengupdate blog ni yang, kira dalam bahasa pasar, mula bersawang.

Semenjak dua menjak ni, aku sedar mulut aku semakin celaka, cakap main lepas, dan yang seangkatan dengannya. Mungkin inilah dikatakan sesetengah orang "adik-adik yang baru nak naik" haha. Sebab sebelum ni aku menjaga tutur kata, cover baik kalau sakit hati, xmau cakap kalau sakit hati, blablabla.

Mungkin juga sebab sakit dalam hati aku belum sembuh secukupnya. Terguris dalam wooo. Sumpah xtipu.

Kadang-kadang fikir, cukup! Sudah! Full stop disini sahaja.

Tapi xtermampu.

**tetiber mood falsafah. Kau ni kenape?! (meniru gaya orang ofis)

Bak kata ice queen, SUDAH!!! Haha.

Lagi satu, adeh aku mau share perihal manusia yang bermulut lohong kat orang yang xpernah jahat kat dia. Dengan kata lain, kaki kutuk dan gossip liar ke atas adik-adik bermulut celaka yang baru nak naik.

Okey, aku bermulut celaka sekarang tapi agak-agak la. Kalau sesiapa yang xda kaitan kena-mengena dengan hidup aku, aku biar dia hidup happily n'ever after katenyer. Then kalau ada orang yang directly or indirectly dragging me into that nothing-that-turned-into-something something, hah sudah aku memang angin.

Ada la perihal manusia ni, aku mula-mula hormat dengan dia. Dah dia lagi tua. Perempuan. Umur 38, 39 camtu aku pun malas mau teka sebab xde maknanye. Anyway OMG depan aku punya baik, puji-puji, lepas tu lemah lembut potong line kalau ada apa-apa **bunyi siren. Rupanya mulut dia lohong. Boleh kutuk aku kat belakang. Siap umpamakan aku dengan sejenis hidupan berdarah sejuk yang mana lepas aku dengar, aku rasa macam nak sumbat kasut McDonalds aku dalam mulut dia biar dia rasa betapa lohong dan celakanya mulut dia. OMG. Aku xkacau pun hidup kau perempuan. Aku dah layan baik-baik. Kenapa perlu bermulut puaka kat aku? Apa hak kau untuk mengutuk aku camtu? Aku tutup periuk nasi kau kah? Aku cerita buruk pasal kau kah? Aku fitnah kau kah? Xda, siyes xda. Azam tahun baru aku, mau jadi neutral untuk semua orang. Kecuali the not-so-special few who ticks me off. And you are one of them now, sistah! Menyesal aku ceritakan perihal kehidupan aku ngan dia ni. Aku jamin dia akan putar belitkan sampai orang berburuk sangka dengan aku. So what aku suka menari? Ada aku rogol anak orang? Argh manusia! Cermin dulu muka kau.

**drama dalam blog.

Entah aku pun pening camna mau susun ayat bagi fluid transition supaya pembaca faham. Harap-harap faham la. Pendek kata, aku xkutuk orang yang xda kaitan ngan hidup aku. Kecuali kutuk artis-artis yang siapa-suruh-korang-gatal-nak-femes-sekarang-kan-kena-kutuk-caci **Ariel Peterpan kena jel 3 tahun. Cut Tari boleh posing feeling-feeling cantik konon nak tenangkan dia.

Kalau orang tu pernah pedajal, buat jahat kat aku, baru aku kutuk. Hisy.

Sudah, banyak merepek. Map dah download. Chiowwzzzz

Tweety Bird

2011-01-20T22:51:00.001+08:00

I'm all about tweeting now.

Thanks to special someone.

Tarikh Luput

2011-01-09T17:47:00.002+08:00

Argh.

Kenapa semangat berblog ni xpandai datang?

Dimana kau?!!!!

Plastik La Kau

2010-12-19T15:15:00.002+08:00

Ya, tema post kali ni, pasal ke-plastikos-an sesetengah orang.

Aku mengaku, kadang-kadang aku jadi hipokrit sebab tamau menyakitkan hati orang.

TAPI [tu dia, caps lock plak dah], tu sebab aku xmau sakitkan hati sesiapa. NAMUN [caps lock lagi] aku xboleh cover kalau aku xsuka dengan orang tu. Serius aku xpandai berselindung.

Ada la seorang manusia ni, dulu bukan main kutuk mengeji cara aku menjalani kehidupan aku. Apa, kau ingat kau sempurna sangat ka? Kau ingat kau suci sangat ka?

And guess what, sekarang, manusia tu buat exactly apa yang dia kutuk dulu. Oke, kalau sejibik dua, aku boleh terima. Ni, hampir semua benda yang dia kutuk aku dulu, sekarang dia buat. I mean, how plastikos is that?

Kalau ya pun kau xsuka apa orang lain buat, jangan sedap mulut kutuk weh. Tengok sekarang, kau buat apa yang kau bahasakan sebagai "sampah" dulu. Choi. Macam jilat ludah sendiri weh. Please la manusia.

Sorry la dear readers kalau post aku kebelakangan ni emo sokmo. Cuma xtahan dengan perangai manusia ni. Haih.

Dan kepada KAU, sedar-sedar lah diri ye. Kau banyak kutuk aku. Depan aku pulak tuh. KAU memang hampeh. Sangat plastik, sangat talam dua muka, sangat kuat berlakon dalam sinetron.

*Tampar pakai talam

Just Gonna Stand There and Make Me Burn

2010-12-16T22:14:00.004+08:00

You lied to me.

Yet you still have the gut to say, "I promise you this" ? "I give you my word" my ass.

Have you got no shame?

This may seem as minuscule as a tiny bacteria, but it shows your true color.

1) Said you hated Romp. Yet you now wearing them.

2) Said you don't like JB. Now you love and went gaga over him.

3) Said my circle of friends are fake and narcissist. As if you are a saint.

4) Oh the funniest. You said you booked tickets to Bali for us? I may be blind, but I am no stupid. You would NEVER do that.

I remember receiving SMS, "Please answer the phone, I'm going home tonight"

then 5 seconds later, poof you magically appear in front of me. With your new yaya sister.

You are so full of drama. And I'm getting sick of it.

Enough with the bullshit. Or share them with someone who ACTUALLY cares, i.e your new BFF.

Do whatever you like. Just take your drama away from me. Far far away from me. I hate them. And I hate you.

Oh and dear readers, I'm reopening this blog. I like it simple, and I like it bold.

Kiss my ass, you pathetic drama queen.

*pose tapak tangan lalu berkata "Sudah"

Confession (Shame on me)

2010-11-13T02:53:00.002+08:00

I have to confess;

1) Sometimes I hate reading blog with too much about the author's life. Urgh, why did you want to share to everyone that you ate 4 plates of nasi goreng for your lunch. I mean, does anybody care? Then again, I read my blog, and I also sometimes share too much. Oh well. *smirk*

2) I love sleep with THAT many pillows. Oh I should have listened to someone who asked me to buy a Queen sized bed. Instead a single one.

3) I prefer staying in my room, playing DoTA on my laptop, downloading useless apps for my iPod the whole weekend. Is that a crime?

4) Most of the time, I ask myself. Is this the life I want for myself?

5) I changed much in a year, than I did in 5 years. Go figure.

6) I hate this one guy who thinks he is beyond everybody else. Geez. Whatever.

7) I love my Chuck.

8) I miss my student life. A bit.

9) I love to eat Maggie Assam Laksa. But I heard it can cause infertility.

10) I wish I've been laid back more when I was studying. Too tense, I suppose.

Peace and out

Oy Kapoy!

2010-11-12T18:26:00.002+08:00

Tiba-tiba aku rasa ingin merepek.

Alhamdulillah, bulan lepas, aku selamat berkonvo. Nama first woo. Tapi xkuar kat skrin. Demm. Nama orang lain keluar. Nasib baik xmasuk dalam gambar.

Kali ketiga aku nampak ayah aku menitiskan air mata.

Aku peluk emak aku rapat-rapat. Aku cuba kontrol macho, xmau tumpah air mata jugak. Tahan.

Tapi masa tu, Masya-Allah bahagia gila aku rasa. Dapat buat family aku bangga. Alhamdulillah 5 tahun aku berhempas pulas.

Oh, berkenaan entri sebelum ni. Ya, kenaikan berat badan yang mendadak. Kalau sebelum ni, aku cuba gigih menaikkan berat badan, tapi fulamak lepas start kerja, memang senang gila badan naik. Siap jeans saiz 30 yang sebelum ni jadi teman setia aku selama 2 tahun, sekarang buat aku senak kalau pakai.

Haha. Tapi masih terkawal. BMI aku sekarang 20.7. Berpatutan. Hehe.

Ha, cool factor aku pulak naik mendadak. Pssst. Aku bakal perform depan orang ofis time teambuilding bulan 12 ni. Woot woot. Walaupun pengalaman aku, memang gugup depan orang ramai, tapi kali ni harap-harap ok. Lagu faveret aku Tercipta Untukku, bakal didendangkan. Harap aku x neves la. Kang keluar suara kambing.

Okeyh. Aku mengantuk. Rehat jap.

Zass.

Its Official

2010-11-08T07:17:00.000+08:00

Aku da xmuat pakai seluar saiz 30. Ah deym

Pening

2010-10-09T12:02:00.003+08:00

Haha. Should I go on with the new blog, or continue with this one?

Flip flopping. Oh that is so me.

Next week is my convocation. Congratz to felllow UTPian Graduates. 5 (or 4) solid years, and now we are becoming somebody.

Can't wait to see my parents' face during my graduation. My family is my everything. I dedicate my achievement especially to my mum who believes in me no matter what.

Gosh is that tears on my cheek.

Yes, they are.

Cheers

Wow

2010-08-21T00:05:00.002+08:00

Lama aku xbertandang gi blog aku sendirik.

Sekalik, fulamak, 35 follower?!

Thanks everyone. Haha.

Sebagaimana yg aku mention dalam post sebelum ni, aku "cuba" berhenti berblog disebabkan krisis dalaman. Entah, semangat aku berblog terus luntur kaw-kaw.

Aku da jadi bukan aku.

Aku try lagi sekali, mendatangkan semula minat berblog. Yeah.

Oh, sila lawat blog baru aku ni. Xbanyak sangat material. But, like I said, I'll try and get back the pieces.

Cheerio!!

Packed, and left

2010-04-23T23:27:00.002+08:00

Ahoy!

So yeah, I've been scratching my hands all these times. Very itchy.

And now, I decided to open up a new blog.

Ahaha. Looks like I will continue my passion after all.

Here is the link.

Feel free to drop by.

Cheers

Goodbye

2010-02-27T21:57:00.003+08:00

Dearest everyone who read this.

It comes to the point that I lost interest in writing/posting anything in this blog anymore. I have my own personal reasons for this.

I may post something in the future, I don't know, but it will only on random things and only time will tell.

I may not an interesting person, nor my blog is. But for those who constantly reading this blog, putting on comments, I appreciate them so much, thanks for your support. Thank you very much.

For those who were hurt by any of my posts, I would like to sincerely apologize. I am a merely ordinary human being, who is far from perfect, who have flaws here and there. I may have posted something stupid, just out of nowhere that may have come out wrong. Again, I would like to apologize sincerely, and I hope that you will forgive me. If not sooner, later.

With this, I bid you all goodbye.

empty

2010-02-26T12:05:00.003+08:00

Siap

2010-02-25T08:23:00.000+08:00

Aku dah buat apa yang di request.

Next on the list?

Kenapa

2010-02-24T18:35:00.004+08:00

Why do things have to come all at the same time? How can I choose? How can I decide?

When I need them to be, they never here.

Gosh, life is so full of jokes.

Your Wish Is My Command

2010-02-22T00:39:00.010+08:00

Just came back from an exhausting day with my buddy, Zaid.

We met up at KLCC, and straight he brings me to his favorite place. Fisherman Marketplace, where all the menus are seafoods. We choose this meal (forgot the name), and it was interesting since the waiter sort of "firing" the meal in front of us before serving, and yeah it was kinda cool.

Cool trick

Tadaaa. Itadakimasu!

Then to our main event, we went to KLCC Aquaria. It was our first time, so yeah, kinda over excited a bit, at least for me. Haha. And it was super cool! I will definitely bring along my family there when they come for my graduation.

With Zaid gemuks

Bayu laut woo

Green eyed gecko

Sand King

Macam belangkas

Sea horse

Not sure what is the name of this

Zaid risau kena telan ikan arowana

Mmm, goreng pun sodapp!

Bzzzt

Sea turtle

Almost ethereal-looking being. Jellyfish

Who's that Pokemon?!

Grrrr

To self: Sedap ni grill sekor-sekor

My coolest pic so far, hehe

Awhhhhhh

Armed with a digicam with 2GB of memory, I just snap snap snap everything the whole tour. We walk around for almost 2 hours, and it was super exhausting. But I enjoyed it as much. LoL.

Waa next week I will start with my first job ever. Wuwuwuwu. Kinda nervous, and excited at the same time.

Cheers.

2010-02-21T08:15:00.002+08:00

Below is my favorite scene from Juno, one of the most heart-warming movies around, stars Micheal Cera (Year One, Superbad) and Ellen Page (X-Men:The Last Stand, Hard Candy).

So sweet, yes?

Bee-Tee-Double-You: Today (21/02) is Ellen Page's birthday, so, Miss Page, a many happy birthday to you. I will always be your biggest fan.

Nobody But You (Again)

2010-02-19T19:15:00.002+08:00

Haha. Found English version.

Oh, bee-tee-double-you, I've been translating various lyrics into some sort of broken Malay and put it as my Facebook status. LoL and it is kinda fun, appreciate all the comments. I've been doing that since I was in UTP, and several friends did guess the song correctly. Haha. Let me share some of my translation here, and try guess what song are they.

1) dia mau balik ke rumah, tapi xda orang di rumah, di sana dia baring, rosak di dalam. tiada tempat mau pi, tiada tempat mau pi, untuk keringkan airmata beliau, rosak di dalam.

2) tiada benda yang okey, aku terkoyak. aku hilang keyakinan. ini yang aku rasa. aku kesejukan dan kemalu-maluan. baring berbogel atas lantai. ilusi takkan menjadi kenyataan. aku terbangun, dan nampak langit yang sempurna, kini terkoyak. ko terlambat sikit, aku sudah terkoyak.

3) jangan cakap ko cinta aku, ko belum kenal aku lagi. kalau ko mau aku, bagi aku sikit masa la. jangan pi sana, sebelum aku sedia. jangan cakap hati ko mau cepat, bukan mau kawin pun. bagi aku, bagi aku, sikit masa.

4) kaulah romeo, ko baling batu kecik. bapak aku cakap, jangan ko dekat ngan juliet. dan aku menangis di tangga. merayu supaya ko xpergi, dan aku cakap "romeo, bawak aku gi tempat untuk berdua-duaan. aku akan tunggu. apa-apa terjadi, kita lari terus. ko akan jadi putera, aku akan jadi puteri. ianya kisah cinta, oh kasih, cakap ya sudey"

5) ko bertelefon dengan awek ko, dia sedih sebab apa yang ko cakap. dia blur dengar gurauan ko, bukan cam aku. aku dalam bilik, biasala, malam selasa. aku dengar lagu yang dia xsuka. dia xkan kenal ko cam aku. tapi dia pakai skirt pendek, aku pakai t-shirt. dia ketua kumpulan sorak, aku guna peluntur. bermimpi akan hari, bila kau akan sedar, aku lah yang kau cari selama ini.

6) dialah segalanya, segalanya yang aku mau. kita sepatutnya bersama, sepatutnya, tapi kita kehilangannya. semua memori yang dekat denganku, hilang begitu saja. rupanya selama ini ko berpura-pura, konon untuk penamat yang bahagia.

7) aku xkisah siapa ko. dari mana ko datang. apa ko buat. selagi ko sayangkan aku. siapapun ko. dari mana ko datang. apa ko buat. selagi ko sayangkan aku.

Ahaha. I will try to make a funnier translation in the future. Maybe when I am darn bored. Oh well.

Cheers

Look Down On Me

2010-02-19T00:32:00.003+08:00

My my.

Its here again.

I'm looking down onto myself.

Sigh. The ever low-self esteem me.

Blow, after blow, after blow.

Clearly.

Royal Treatment

2010-02-16T07:56:00.005+08:00

I have to post this, since I promised my dearest friend Myza, to do so.

Lol.

Yesterday, me and my friend went to Istana Anak Bukit, which is a real life palace of Kedah's Royal Family. I mean, how insane is that?

His family is actually quite close to the Royal, and they even resided at the palace area quite a while ago. There are so many stories that he shared, but yeah, they are not for public knowledge LoL.

I don't know whether it is legal or not, but we took pictures in and around the palace area. Including Mini Safari, the-big-hall-where-the-fancy-ceremony-are-held, Banquet Hall, and Tanjung (according to him, it was filled with flowers back then).

Here are the pictures. Tadaa~

Is it kancil? Not sure lol

Mawas

Umbrella, ella, ella

The King's and Queen's throne

Japanese Garden

Romantic, yes?

Encik Meme(rang)

Cheers

Eat. Pray. Love. And everything in between

2010-02-12T08:06:00.004+08:00

Thanks to Jim, and Wordle

Off to Kedah for Chinese New Year.

Wishing all my Chinese friends and readers, Gong Xi Fatt Chai. Ang pow lai lai.

Cheers

Haha

2010-02-08T00:26:00.001+08:00

Oh well.

2010-02-05T23:58:00.006+08:00

I think I might have seen this in some point of my life

Once upon a time

Cute baby and crouching grandma

McD McD McD McD McD McD Mcd McD

I love strawberries

Alone.

Definitely not mine

I'm bored.

Kerja La La La

2010-02-05T22:03:00.005+08:00

Anyway, bawah ni gambar aku ambil time flight datang KL hari tu. Xbanyak rupanya. Huhu. Layan. Aku naik flight Airbus 330-300, kapal terbang besar. Seating 2-4-2. Serius flight tu kosong. Banyak empty seats, so no wonder la aku dapat beli tiket murah. Imagine, aku beli tiket ni 4 hari sebelum terbang. Usya AirAsia, harga tiket paling murah RM450++ beb. Mampos aku bayar tiket one-way camtu. Syukur la MAS sekarang pun ada seat murah. RM227 one-way. Murah kan? Rezeki.

Yeah, seat tepi tingkap. Terbayekss

Wuwuwuwu. Suka view ni.

Tapi aku agak xselesa dengan brader duduk tepi aku. Bau rokok, Masya-Allah. Aku memang benci bau rokok, sangat benci. Rumet aku mesti tau betapa benci dan jijik aku terhadap bau rokok. Haih.

Flight yang sunyi. Menyesal xmintak makanan lebih dari stewardess. Xbaik membazir, kan kan kan *angkat kening*

Cheers

It is 8 in the morning

2010-02-04T07:56:00.004+08:00

Today, going to UNITEN, theres Career Fair there. So I might want to try my luck, applying for companies there. And get to see Miss Sya and Paan.

Cheers and good luck for our future undertakings!

P/s: Last week, in a rather surprising event, met two of my besties, Nije and his girlfriend on train (I mean, what are the odds that we'll meet on that train? He was right in front of me and I was kinda stunned when I saw him) and Jim, also with his squeeze at KL Sentral (woOt woOt, Jim bahagia sekarang weh, hehe).

Hurm

2010-01-30T08:34:00.002+08:00

Kenapa aku rasa ganjil ni.

Rasa macam xsedap hati. Hari ni flight aku gi KL. Rabu depan interview.

Sedih semacam, tinggalkan rumah. Baru sebulan aku di rumah. Yea, memang aku beriya-iya mau kerja, dapat duit sendiri, segala. Tapi, sedih la jugak. Jauh dari family. Lagi-lagi kalau aku dapat kerja di semenanjung.

Hurm.

Tapi Insya-Allah, aku akan try cari kerja di Sabah.

Buat masa ni, ambil mana yang patut. Kumpul pengalaman.

Ya Allah, tabahkan hati hambaMu ini.

Cheers

2010-01-24T19:09:00.004+08:00

Hari ni release tension, gi karaoke dengan cousins ngan auntie.

Yea la, ni ja la aktiviti yang aku termampu. Status Penganggur Terhormat buatkan pergerakan aku terhad. Bosan di rumah, menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti. Gigih mencari kerja, setakat ni tiada hasil. Interview ja la.

Dan, kebosanan aku datang semula. So bagi mengisi masa lapang, aku listkan semua lagu yang aku dendangkan tadi *jeling maut ngan diri sendiri* .

1) Naluri Lelaki - Samsons (Geo yang buatkan aku suka lagu ni. Hehe. Geo, ko memang terbayekks)

2) Thank You For Loving Me - Jon Bon Jovi (Entah, mood mau nyanyi lagu ni)

3) Kaulah Segalanya - Hazrul Nizam (Tune lari. Lol)

4) Aku Sakit - Wali Band (Lagu faveret aku sekarang. Woot woot!)

5) Tercipta Untukku - Ungu (Lagu faveret jugak! Always)

6) Pupus - Dewa 19 (Serius lari tune, haha)

7) Isabella 98 - Amy Search, Jamal Abdillah, Zamani, Saleem (Wah bangga gila aku dapat angkat lagu nih. Kembang idung)

8) A Little Too Not Over You - David Archuleta (Semestinya)

9) Sway - Micheal Buble (When Marimba rhythm starts to play~)

10) Warisan Wanita Terakhir - Teacher's Pet (Teringat rumet bila nyanyi lagu ni)

11) Rimas - The Fabulous Cats (Lari lari lari aku tinggalkan semua ini, untuk mencari cari cari ketenangan diri)

12) Cinta Dalam Hati - Ungu (Kewl videoclip. Hehe)

Yea, aku rasa tu la semua lagu aku tadi. Sebab tu sekarang terbatuk-batuk sakit tekak. Uhuk uhuk.

Bawah ni bukti aku gi dengan cousins ngan auntie. Bukan melaram xtentu pasal. Hoho.

Aunt Su, Ika, Kak Atie. Geng karas!

Kiut kah?

Diet kah?

AKU BUKAN PEDOPHILE. Lol

Bottom's up

Oh, actually tadi kitorang ambil pakej All You Can Eat Lunch Buffet. Xsempat ambil gambar makanan sebab teruja makan sambil tunggu turn nyanyi. Aha. Tapi seriously berbaloi, sorang bayar RM15 saja, Untuk buffet lunch, and 3 hours of non stop karaoke session. Totally worth it. Tapi pakej ni cuma untuk jam 11am-2pm sajorr. Lepas tu, mahal beb. So, kalau berminat, bangun awal, gi KKBox di Karamunsing. Wah siap jadi promoter. Lol.

Okey la. Aku kena siapkan assignment. Esok hantar. Pening.

Cheers

Memang Best Lah

2010-01-23T00:22:00.001+08:00

Duduk depan laptop, tiada buat apa-apa.

Bosan. Whereby others are having fun with their friends.

Oh dear, looks like I'm all alone tonight. As always.

Xpa, da biasa.

Cheers

Sob Sob

2010-01-18T22:52:00.002+08:00

I'm still sad. Sigh

But tomorrow I'm having a phone interview with one of the companies that I mentioned in my previous post. Hope everything goes well.

And I'm doing my preparation while listening to this song. Over, over, and over again.

Cheers.

A Piece of Me

2010-01-16T16:15:00.002+08:00

Haha, mood swing today.

Honestly I also don't know the real reason.

Oh well. Maybe a bit lonely.

And is wondering what happened to those promises.

I should be enjoying myself, celebrating my unofficial graduation, but hey, no one to celebrate with. Everyone is busy with their own lives. I guess I'm fine with that. Kinda get used to it already.

I got a call from two companies, one in KL, one in Penang. Unfortunately the KL one, they want me to come next week, which is quite impossible since I haven't prepared anything for my travel arrangement, so I asked them to do the interview on final week of January instead, and I'm still waiting for their answer. The one in Penang, is a Japan based company, specialize in manufacturing optical equipments. The person in charge is quite nice, he even told me that I can arrange the interview anytime based on my availability.

And now I'm thinking about my travel arrangement. And I need to decide, whether I should stay in KL after the interviews, or what.

I need to reduce the expense as much as possible.

Yea, tonight going to see a wise man. Haha. Ask for his opinion. Hope he can help me. Or maybe tomorrow. Hurm.

On random thoughts, I miss UTP's Charkueteow, and Ameeth's Nan Cheese.

Geez.

I'm sad. Do I look sad to you?

Maybe a bit disturbed. Yeah, maybe.

Alhamdulillah

2010-01-15T04:56:00.003+08:00

Yeah, finally, a good news after quite some time. Hehe.

Alhamdulillah. Now I'm on the verge of having tears down my cheek. I am so happy now, like I never felt before.

All the sweat and tears I put last semester, are paid off. I couldn't ask for more.

Gosh I just want to jump up and down at 5 in the morning LOL.

And now, I can proudly say

"Yeah, I've graduated with a First Class Degree"

Big cheers

A Story To Keep Us Going

2010-01-08T06:51:00.003+08:00

This article was kindly sent by my dear friend, Peja last night. I just checked my e-mail and yeah, reading this kinda moved and motivate me. After reading this, I felt a lot better than I was for the past 2 weeks.

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ya push. aku salah seorang daripada fresh graduate UTP. 99% belum ada kerja setakat ini. fresh graduate tahun lepas pun masih ramai menganggur. susah masuk Petronas skang. maybe tahun depan baru ok. by that time kalo Petronas baru nak offer, susah la aku nk tinggal company skang kalo gaji da start masyuk.....

Kalo gaji da start masyuk? Bertuah le kau kalau gaji dah start masyuk... Ekonomi sekarang ni (and in the near future) tak menunjukkan yang gaji pekerja akan start masyuk... Hehehe! Sorry ye, bukan nak demoralize kau, tapi just peringatan le... pepandai la menyimpan... :D

Aku masa grad berkeras tak nak pakai kabel dan tak nak kerja ngan gomen... Aku yakin ada gak rezeki aku, walaupun nampak gaya harapan tipis je... Teringat lagi first job aku masa abis belajar dulu, jadi kuli angkut barang kat forwarding company, kerja part-time je for couples of weeks... First day kerja, bila balik, terus tido sampai pagi for 12 hours... Teringat lagi dok punggah barang dalam trailer, baju tu boleh perah keluar peluh barangkali dekat satu gelas kot... :gelakgoleng:

Second job jadi engineer kat kompeni apek. Boss aku racist gile, tiap-tiap hari kena maki kaw-kaw punya... Aku ngan sorang member aku (dia bersabar pasal hidup nak kena tanggung anak bini)... Gaji ciput je, masa tu tak sampai 3/4 gaji-gaji member-member aku yang lain yang kerja boleh tahan le. Nak compare ngan MNC memang buat sakit hati je. Every month takleh saving pun... Naik segan aku pasal tak leh contribute apa pun kat rumah nenek aku (masa tu aku dok ngan arwah nenek aku). Lepas few months, aku resign pasal aku rasa takde masa depan kat situ, dan aku dah teringin nak belasah boss aku... so baik aku blah sebelum aku masuk balai, masa depan aku tak nak tarnish bodoh-bodoh je... :D

Aku decide cari job kat O&G industry pasal aku dengar orang sembang pasal O&G. Hantar CV berpuluh-puluh kompeni tu standard laa... aku hantar CV, dari MNC sampai la ke company yang takat buat trading jual valves je. Even yang bukan O&G pun aku apply, mana tahu kalau ada rezeki... Aku mintak any available vacancy masa tuh, biar la susah pun aku sanggup kerja. Aku mintak member aku (orang yang dah bekerja) kasi business cards yang dia dapat masa meeting, business card kengkawan dia, sapa-sapa je yang dia ada etc, and aku pi photostat one by one. Aku apply based on that list, and also list dari newspaper.

Aku zaman takde internet dulu (ada tapi tak mampu nak masukkan line kat rumah), hantar berpuluh gak, rasanya dekat 80 kot. Print-out one by one, masuk envelope, hantar pakai snail mail, ada gak yang aku hantar by hand... Teringat lagi yang aku naik bas gi KL, pastu dok merayau pakai kasut kulit, long sleeve ngan seluar slack, bawak beg penuh envelopes of CV, and submit by hand one by one kat O&G related companies dulu... Teringat lagi gi jumpa receptionist/guard kat mana-mana company pastu mintak izin jumpa HR Manager/Exec, ramai yang buat tak layan je. Teringat lagi masa orang pandang kita sebelah mata je pasal nampak cam budak kampung yang takde apa-apa... Sangkut 3-4 interview pun kira bertuah le... so continue je la submit CV. :wahaha:

Teringat masa gi convocation... masa graduation day tu aku takde kerja (baru berenti dari company gile tuh). Rasa segan pun ada ngan kengkawan terutama geng yang ada scholarship, senang je dapat kerja... Rasa segan pun ada bila dapat tau yang ada yang dah buat planning nak bertunang le, kawin le apa bagai... Aku masa tu awek pun takde. Infact bagus gak pasal soru aku pun miss, so nak kasi awek makan apa... Tapi takle sedih sangat bila pikir ada gak kengkawan yang cam aku, infact ada lagi worse pasal kena extend study. :wahaha:

Masa mula-mula cari kerja tu aku takde handphone, so aku kasi la contact number member baik aku. So dia la jadi tukang operator jawab panggilan untuk aku... Alhamdulillah, dia tolong aku pasal ada tak lama lepas tu aku dapat job through phone dia.

Bila aku dapat kerja, aku punya la happy gila-gila. Arwah nenek aku la orang first dapat berita tu, bersyukur betul dia masa tuh. Sehari sebelum aku gi kerja, member baik aku yang sorang lagi (dia kerja bagus dah masa tuh! Tapi still banyak pakai duit support family) datang rumah nak ucap tahniah. Time sembang tu dia tanya aku ada duit tak? Rasa sayu time nak cakap yang aku cuma ada dekat RM10 je pasal aku dah naik malu mintak duit ngan bapak aku. (Abis je belajar aku tak mintak duit langsung dari dia, pasal dia pun kena support adik-adik aku, dan jugak aku pun nak prove yang aku boleh maju sendiri). Pastu member aku kasi duit RM100 kat aku. Dia cakap bila ada duit nanti bayar balik la kat dia. Rasa loser abis beb... :loser:

Pastu bermula la zaman aku kerja; bawak diri ke tengah laut (kena gelak ngan kengkawan pasal kerja kat laut, masa tu yang top ialah civil engineering, IT dan computer engineering), kena maki kaw-kaw masa kerja, kerja opis, jadi macai, kerja macam orang gila, pastu merantau kerja kat negara-negara orang, dan proofkan kat kengkawan yang lain yang aku pun ada rezeki kat bumi Allah ni.

Member-member baik aku tu aku belanja la apa yang patut... tu pun tak cukup nak balas jasa diorang kat aku. Ada aku belanja makan, ada aku bagi tiket F1, ada yang dapat T-shirt souvenir dari setiap penjelajahan aku kat bumi Allah nih. First gaji aku dalam dunia O&G ni aku belikan mesin basuh untuk arwah nenek aku... Last 3 months aku balik kampung, mesin tu baru je KO after bertahun-tahun... Aku pun tak sempat tengok arwah nenek aku masa dia meninggal pasal aku dok kat laut kat negara orang... semua ni pasal kerja le.

Tiap kali aku teringat life aku dulu dan comparekan balik ngan apa yang Allah dah bagi kat aku, aku rasa sayu... Aku dapat lebih dari apa yang aku pernah imagine masa aku hidup susah dulu... Alhamdulillah.

So bila kau tanya experience masa jadi Fresh Graduate, pening kepala tak? Seriously, bukan takat pening je... Rasa gelap satu dunia beb especially bila kau rasa yang kau dah takde masa depan... Tapi bersabar, berusaha dan berdoa... InsyaAllah, ada rezeki korang semua.

Korang tak memilih kerja tu bagus la, tapi senang cakap je bagi kebanyakan orang... Easier said than done. Bila yang dihire jadi junior executive pun, ada yang komplen kalau kena suruh buat photocopy and prepare projector untuk presentation... Tapi takpe, ni zaman korang plak, proofkan le something. Aku tahu yang pasti kalau korang ada semangat, ada usaha, ada berdoa, InsyaAllah korang survive. :sengih:

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So fellow I'm-just-graduated friends, especially those who thinks the world is at its end (ahem, look who's talkin eh) just because our other friends who are fortunate enough to secure a job before they even graduated. Keep on going. It also applies to me. I have to admit, when I got the news that I failed a job interview, I felt as if my world as I knew it, crumbles down on me all at once. Seriously. I even on the brink of mental breakdown, no kidding.

But thanks to several nice and kind people, they able to help me back on my two feet.

And reading the above article this morning, its just keep giving me strength to move on, and just keep trying. Thanks to the uncredited writer, whom I don't even know, because with this, I was able to gather all the pieces of me that I thought I'd lost.

Cheers

P/s: I failed my interviews, I was actually been thrown away from my friend's house when I was staying with him for few days because of an argument, I lost 2 close friends in one week, my laptop just R.I.P few days back. Its a lot to digest, but yeah, that is life. Life goes on. Hidup mesti terus.

P/s/s: Thank you. ZZ, ZM, Tomatto.

2010

2010-01-02T19:47:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year 2010~

May this year brings us joy and happiness, and blessing from up above, Insya-Allah.

I am grateful of how I survived the rough year of 2009. And I am also thankful to several people that I've come to know. Great people, with great personality, mix and match I suppose.

Same goes to fellow UTPian. Although it was such a hectic year to (almost) all of us, with FYPs, but we managed to push through. Hehe. To juniors, good luck. LOL.

Cheers.

NotaKaki: Terima kasih jugak kepada insan yang cukup baik dan tahan hati merawat aku time down. Sangat appreciate your effort, and now I am feeling so much better. Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you.

Woh!

2009-12-27T01:35:00.001+08:00

Malaysia is ranked 5th in World's Friendliest Country.

Impressive.

Plans

2009-12-22T07:14:00.002+08:00

Didn't work as well as I want them to be.

Another pieces of me that I have to put back in their places.

Oh well.

Thank you to certain someone who in your own way, supported me through all these.

Looks like I have to draw another plan.

As We Go On

2009-12-16T23:12:00.003+08:00

Well, I don't think it is too late to congratulate all fellow UTPian who (un)officially graduated. Its been 5 solid years. Filled with joy, laughter, sweat, and some may say tears. All which applied to me by the way.

I have to admit, there are several times that I do feel that I don't belong in UTP. I might be better off somewhere else.

5 years I've been here, I came to know and become fond of few people. Some of them do in fact shaped me of who I am today. Phew, it was such a ride. I really appreciate all the people that I befriends here. All of you. And especially those who lend their hand when I'm in need. Seriously you all are rock stars.

I would also like to apologize to those who I have hurt, whether intentionally or unintentionally. Deepest and my most sincere apology to all of you.

Lastly, I would like to wish the best of luck to all. May God bless us all in whatever we do, InsyaAllah.

Cheers

KL journey yang mengecewakan

2009-12-05T07:46:00.004+08:00

Ahh, I have to admit that my journey to KL was so disappointing. Full with awkwardness, silent period, and lets-try-not-to-make-eye-contact-for-a-day 'game' for the whole two days. Sigh. I was expecting fun, but all I got was boredom, and constant usage of laptop instead hanging out and have fun like promised. And I was kinda regretting the decisions that I made that lead me to where I was.

But overall, it was so depressing knowing that it was almost for nothing. Its just pure luck that I promised to take care of the little spawns. But there is no next time, period.

And I would like to thank Nel who was so accommodating and let me drop my stuff there (although the room was super warm since there was no fan at all), but at least I know my stuff are safe there. Haha, karaoke-ing with you was fun dude. To his girlfriend, Zah, thanks for accompanying me on my way to the train station.

(Gawd I notice my posts are getting boring by the day. Pffft)

Aiyo, still haven't watch 2012 and New Moon. Hopefully by next week I will be able to watch both.

*angkat-angkat kening*

in, out. in again

2009-11-29T07:51:00.005+08:00

Last night, went to watch Ninja Assassin with bunch of friends, and maybe the last time we'll hang out together. It was, okay to say the least. Personally I think the movie is overrated. Too much shirtless Rain going on. In terms of action? 3.5/5 and what's up with no hot chicks?! Gosh, why on earth do they pick that girl as Rain's lover? As Shisha put it, "Nasib baik awek tu mati awal-awal. Mungkin sebab dorang keji tengok muka dia kot" hahaha. Kejam siot statement ni, but I do agree. ROTFL.

At least find some decent good looking Korean actress to pair with Rain. Or is it because they wanted to cut cost? Duh.

And the plot was super messy. There is no smooth flow. Sigh. The only scene I enjoyed was, when Raizo (Rain) was chased by ninjas who throws endless shuriken at him. It was kinda cool. But other than that, I'd rather texting instead. Pffft.

Oh, last Friday, I went to this outing with UTP Bornean friends. Loads of fun. And I did something I'd usually resent doing. Play touch rugby. Haha. But it was fun, and tiring. Too bad it was too little entertainment.

But at least I went go-karting for the first time. Haha, adrenalin rush all the way.

Catch of the day

First timer go-karting

Funfair at Lumut Marina. (L-R) Arnold, Petrus, Nuh, Ikan, Reyno, Aloy, Johnny, Aldrin, Adrian, me

Aldy. Ex-roomate. Hair stylist since my foundation years. Hehe. Been a great friend to me.

The Graduates! Standing (L to R): Fahmi, Nuh, Arnold, Petrus, Aloy. Sitting (L to R): Me, Aldy, Reyno, Calvin.

Cheers

And Then.....?

2009-11-21T22:16:00.003+08:00

2005 - 2009

We Smile. We laugh. We cry.

Cheers

A Better Version of Me

2009-11-21T12:19:00.004+08:00

Last night I went to Pinat's Birthday Party at a restaurant near Lumut. Thanks to Pinat for inviting me, it was a blast, woOt woOt. Hehe. Anyway, had fun last night, lots of consumables and spent quality time with them. Gosh I was kinda sad last night, thinking that after this, we might not be able to see each other as often. But hey, thats life. You just have to move on.

Anyhow, I hope its not too late to wish dearest Pinat, Happy 22nd Birthday girl! Hehe. Wish you the best of luck in your life, and may Allah bless you. Thanks again for such lovely get-together last night. Thanks :)

Happy Birthday Pinat!!

And as I went back to my room last night, boot my laptop, I updated my Facebook status.

"I stopped singing you lullaby a while ago"

The reason I put it was, I remembered this one TV series, where the daughter came running after her daddy, and was asking ridiculous things, and the daddy said as quoted above. It was a little bit harsh, but sometimes, we need it to move on with life.

And all of a sudden, my cousin (actually he is the husband to my cousin, but I call him cousin anyways and we are kinda close) sent me private message in FB, but since UTP's internet connection now become as sucky as it was back then, so I cant reply him. I sent him message instead, and ask wassup?

He sent me some motivational talk, which I really appreciate since I notice I am a bit lost nowadays, and I tend to do things that I know I'm not supposed to.

First point he said, reduce my 'jiwang'-ness in FB. And I have to ROTFL on this since not every FB status of mine are about me. I took them from any TV series that I watch, or even from lines in any song that I was "into" during that time. And apparently, he mention this, shows that he always follow my FB status. Haha, I have to be careful now. Chill, I may call myself an "emotional bastard" but I resent showing off like that, it may seem like it, but no, its not the case. But I may went overboard with the statuses. Hehe.

Second, he told me, focus on my goal. Grow up. Stop acting like a little boy. Okay, this one I agree. I do admit, that I let myself trapped inside my own thoughts. I tried to let loose, but everytime I try, I fell back, intentionally or unintentionally, to where I was. I was acting childish, and getting far away from my goal. I guess the huge experiment I did last year, is now had its toll on me. I firmly believe that someone can help me, unfortunately that someone is getting further away from me since our row last year. I tried to reach him back, and ask for his help. But I guess things are not the way they used to be. I am an Island.

Third, my cousin told me to score well in exam, and bring back a well-deserving degree back to Sabah. This one, I'm not sure how to comment. Again, I'm lost in my own thought. And I keep searching for that drive that I had before. I know, I shouldn't complain much since these all are on me, but to tell you the truth, sometimes when I look at myself in the mirror, I'm asking myself, who is this person that I've become. Am I proud with who I am now? Can I stand tall and tell everyone that I am?

Fourth, he wants me to promise to myself that I will do whatever I say I'd do to tackle those 3 problems he imposed. And all I can is, I promise I'd do my best. I hope I'd be able to.

Enough for self reflection in words. Its time to materialize them.

Go go, Power Rangers!

Cheers

Say 'Uncle'

2009-11-18T20:44:00.002+08:00

I'm actually have many things to write in this blog, but the urge and the spirit of writing is not there. Wondering.

Anyway, last Tuesday was my FYP presentation. Yea, I thought there would be bloodbath, but as surprised as I am, it was quite pleasant. My supervisor actually helped me throughout my presentation, answers the questions posed by the examiners. And I think I did okay for my slides and preparation, that I didn't get that much bazookas from the panel of examiners. And thankfully, it was Dr Ahmed Maher. He was quite gentle in asking me questions. No rapid fire. Phew.

Have another 2 papers to go. This Friday, Cultural Anthropology. Then next week, Drilling and Production Technology.

Hurm.

No idea what to write. I guess I'm posting this one just for the sake of updating my blog.

Oh well.

Cheers

A Cuppa For You

2009-11-13T17:16:00.001+08:00

When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar.

He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

Please share this with other of this "Golf Balls" story

Food for thought.

Cheers

Testing 1, 2, 3

2009-11-12T07:27:00.003+08:00

My last final exam is here, at last. My first paper will be on this Saturday, 14th then on Sunday, 15th. Heck next week I'm having my final presentation on Tuesday. OMG. I mean, OM-eff-G. There will be bloodbath.

Then next, my paper will be on Friday, 20th next week. And *ahem* my last paper *wheeeeee* will be on Wednesday, 25th. Fuh! Can't wait weh. Then I hope that Hari Raya Aidiladha will fall on 27th so I can settle all my clearance by 26th. 30th, going to Ipoh, stay at Ikhwan's for a night. Then on 1st Dec, going to KL and stay at, erm, *rahsia* hahaha. 4th, balik kampus for interview.

Okay, that is my plan for now. Gosh can't wait to have fun after all these ended. Yea I know, I'm gonna miss all these but heck for now, I just can't wait to get it over with.

Hehe.

Last night went to bed at 10.30pm (wOot wOot), and today I wake up at 6. Haha. Instead studying (duh) I'm just surfing and trying to get as many Mp3 as possible to replace my old collection that was infected by that mothafaka virus that attacked my laptop last year. Sigh. 10gb of Mp3, more than half now are corrupted.

Urm, what else.

My moment here in UTP is almost at its end. I wish I'd enjoyed my stay here as much, but hey, I am glad that I get to know several wonderful people who share wonderful memories with me. It is kinda sadden me that I will be parting ways with these people. Especially my housemates who I've known since the beginning.

Cheers

Almost-Midnight Rambling

2009-11-09T23:52:00.004+08:00

Adeh, bingung betul aku dengan satu manusia ni. Kuat sangat merajuk. Ingat aku ni boyfriend dia ka, mau merajuk everyday?! Sangat annoying, oke. Kalau ikutkan hati, dah lama aku tolak dia dari tingkat 5 bilik aku ni, tapi apakan daya, dia mana boleh masuk hostel aku. Demmit. Annoying sungguh.

Aku tiada mood, ayat cam haram sikit.

Anyway, sekarang aku ada obsesi terbaru:

Masak breakfast.

Hoho, ala, simple sudey. A couple of toast with butter, 2 sausages, put some mustard on, ngan ice lemon tea. Nyaman gak. Dan menjimatkan.

P/S: Sosej aku tiba-tiba hilang dalam fridge, aku emo sekejap. Nasib baik tuan punya badan mengaku. Aku xkisah, kalau mau, just ask. I wouldn't be so stingy. Just don't freaking take my things without permission.

Sigh, its been a crappy week for me. Seriously.

Oh well, I better focus on my finals. My last final exams here in UTP.

Cheers

Awkward

2009-11-04T07:12:00.009+08:00

Ni adalah pengalaman betul aku. Serius.

P/S: No offence ya guys, just sharing my experience here.

Situasi 1

Watak : Aku (A) dan tukang interview (TI)

Senario : Interview cari kerja

TI : Oh, you Muslim eh?

A : Yes Ma'am. Of course I am.

TI : Your parents? Your mum? Dad? Family?

A : Yes, I am born Muslim.

TI : I see, I thought you weren't. You look like a Chinese guy a bit.

Errr.. Aku muka Cina? Serius? Dah la hitam camni (okey, bukan la hitam sangat kan). Tapi, siap tanya aku Muslim ka x. Adeh.

Situasi 2

Watak : Aku(A) dan awek kiut dalam Facebook (AF)

Senario : Chatting dalam Facebook

AF : Where you from?

A : Sabah.

AF : Still studying?

A : Ya, but finishing soon, hehe.

AF : Oh, going back for Christmas?

A : Err, I don't celebrate Christmas.

AF : Really? I thought you Chinese. My mistake.

A : Err

@.@ patut kah aku perasan aku ni berkulit cerah? Sebab dia cakap, aku nampak fair dalam gambar-gambar aku. Oh tidak. Aku xmau jadi perasan lebih-lebih. Da azali aku gelap.

Situasi 3

Watak : Aku(A), kazen aku (KA), dan kawan kazen aku (KKA).

Senario : Makan McD

KA : Bah, ni la kazen aku. Adi.

A : Hai.

KKA : Uik, kazen ko meh? Macam muka cina ooo.

A : ........................

Okey serius. Aku bukan perasan tau. Ni kejadian yang betul-betul terjadi.

Haha. LengChai? (Perasan).

I need Jim's opinion on this.

Jim? What say you?

Honey Bee

2009-10-30T19:26:00.002+08:00

I am a honey bee
shun out from the colony
they wont let me in

so I left the hive
they took away all my stripes
and broke off both my wings

So ill find another tree
and make the wind my friend
and I’ll sing with the birds
they’ll tell me the secrets of the world

but my other honey bee

is stuck where he doesn’t want to bee
oh my darling honey bee
I’ll come save you even if it means
I’ll have to face the queen

I will come prepared
my new friends say they would help
me get my loved one back

They say it isn’t right
they have control of your mind
but I choose not to believe that

So we’ll meet in the darkness of the night
I promise I will be there on time
I’ll be guided by my friends the butterflies
an bring us back to our own little hive

Oh my other honey bee
no longer stuck where you dont wannabe
oh my darling honey bee
I have saved you and now that you’re with me
we could make our own honey

Unconditionally

2009-10-21T07:57:00.003+08:00

270209-211009 and counting

Makan-makan Cari Pasal

2009-10-19T08:47:00.006+08:00

Dinner Raya Batch January 2005 semalam, maybe event batch yang terakhir kot, sebelum kanak-kanak riang Januari 2005 melangkah pergi dari bumi UTP nih.

"Kami datang nak beraya!!"

Kalau difikirkan, sedih jugak la, berpisah dengan kawan-kawan yang kenal sejak aku masih budak hingusan yang try jadi cool (uhuk uhuk).

Aku masih mamai sebenarnya, semalam balik bilik jam 2 pagi, penat posing untuk kamera. Well, artis kan, nak wat camna~ Tapi memang puas hati la. Nasib baik ada photographer dedikasi, Hafiz. Gigih angkat kamera, snap sana, snap sini. Rilek Apis, at least semalam budak perempuan menginginkan ko more than ever. Nada jeles di situ.

Anugerah paling popular boleh bagi kat Hafiz, photographer berdedikasi

Berbisik-bisik,

"Eh, sape nama dia?"

"Apis, Hapiz, aku xsure, kenape?"

"Ko panggil jap, nak mintak nombor telefon. Eh silap, mintak dia snap gambar kite"

"Okey okey"

"Eh Apis, tolong ambilkan gambar kitorang"

Dalam hati 'fuh, nasib baik betul nama dia Apis'

Hoho.

Komen sikit pasal malam semalam.

01. Makanan memang confirm sedap, tapi kesian orang di belakang (termasuk aku), sebab xcukup. Orang depan, berpada-pada weh.

Jangan lupa sign attendance weh!

02. Enjoy main bunga api. Kalau adik aku nampak mesti jeles.

Kanak-kanak bermain bunga api

Oyama buat stunt. Bajet gagah la tu.

03. Sesi photoshot yang sangat memenatkan. Start 11pm - 2am. Pergh, naik ketat muka asyik mau senyum. Haha.

Photoshoot atas tembok

Photoshoot depan pondok pak guard.

Photoshoot atas jalan raya

Photoshoot Chancellor Hall

04. Thanks committee yang bersusah payah buat event semalam, setinggi-tinggi penghargaan. Event terakhir tu. Insya Allah tahun depan kita beramai-ramai jumpa time Graduation.

"Abang-abang" committee (ehem)

05. Credit also goes to Hafiz yang bersusah payah jadi photographer. Semalam, most overused phrase was "Apis, Apis. Tolong ambilkan gambar kitorang". Hehe. Thank you Hafiz!

Okay, that is all I can pen for now. Aku xdatang kelas Drilling pagi ni sebab masih penat.

Kami Tiga Jantan Pingitan >_<

Mau sambung tidur. At least sejam. Penat.

Cheers

Introducing

2009-10-16T22:41:00.003+08:00

Yosh. Grand opening for my Photo Blog, Dari Kaca Mata Aku.

I was thinking to create it about a year ago, but haven't found a drive to do it. But now, voila everyone.

I'm just using my camera phone, Sony E K770i and my digicam Sony Cyber-Shot W130. No fancy DSLR, just simple point-and-shoot kinda stuff.

No worries, I won't put my face in it. Well, maybe.

Har Har Har Har,

Cheers

131009

2009-10-13T12:54:00.001+08:00

Those were the days.

Karma: The Second Coming

2009-10-09T18:26:00.001+08:00

What goes around, comes around.

And revenge is best served cold.

Cheers

Midnight Rambling

2009-10-08T01:12:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow will be my first job interview ever. Hope everything will be okay. Not expecting that I'll nail the interview, but then again, who knows. InsyaAllah I will try my best.

I remember how I was the one who overly excited for someone else's first job interview. Oh well. Now, I am a man to myself.

Haha, I was always like that. The only person who do all the huhahuhas. But not anymore. No huhahuha from others? Expect none from me. Too tired to be the only human being who jumps up and down, too tired to do it all by myself.

Oh, just got a call from this cool friend of mine. Awhh you are so sweet to call me all the way from the far far away land. Thank you for your many "Goodluck" speeches. Touched by your stories, by the way.

Goodluck for me, and all 13 other finalists. Break a leg! Or maybe two! And for the Baker candidates, wish you all the best as well. Jim, I'm waiting for my cute keychain. Mind the word "cute" there, aitte? *smirk*

I am an island.

Cheers

Cacat Yang Super Duper!!!

2009-10-06T21:14:00.004+08:00

Urghhhhhhh.

Sengal dan cacat.

First, jadual exam aku, tiba-tiba ada subjek FANDE. Sedangkan aku da drop, ambil Drilling & Production Tech. Salah siapa ni?! Pffffttt.

Second, minggu ni 2 test, 1 interview. Minggu depan, 1 interview, poster submission untuk FYP, projek EIS, projek Refrigeration. Pffftttt.

Third, aku perlu moral support, tapi xjumpa. Pffffftttttt.

Fourth, equipment untuk FYP aku belum sampai, camna mau buat poster ni? Pffffftttt.

Fifth, aku BENCI dilayan serupa pusat kebajikan. Hot 'n Cold treatment. Pffffffttttt.

Sixth, kalau diikutkan nafsu amarah aku ni, aku memang buat coup d'etat. Tapi sekarang ada benda lagi PENTING untuk aku fikir. Lantak la. I'll get it over with. Pffffftttttt.

Seventh, kenapa aku asyik teringat tragedi lepas-lepas nih?! Urgghhhhhh. Fokus wehhh!!!

Eight, aku memang cepat blur kebelakangan ni, sebab banyak masalah. Tapi aku cuba untuk tidak menyusahkan orang. Hasilnya, blog aku jadi tempat aku meluahkan perasaan. So, aku minta ampun kalau ke-blur-an aku buat sesiapa sakit hati. I only put my bull craps here.

Ninth and the most depressing of all, DC++ UTP sekarang da mati! Mati! Mati! Mati! OMG. Benda tu lah buat aku survive hidup di UTP ni, tapi sekarang da kena bazooka. Hancur plan aku mau download semua barang dlm DC tu. BNet pun bakal terima nasib sama. Gosh, life in UTP as we know it is gone. Sucks real bad. Sigh.

Adoi!! Memang cacat la!!!!!

Update: Equipment FYP aku insya-Allah sampai esok. Phew.

Aku (tidak) Mau Pulang

2009-09-28T22:19:00.003+08:00

Besok flight aku gi KL jam 7.25am. Ada 2 bulan lagi sisa-sisa hidup aku di UTP. Pahit manis masam masin sudah aku rasa. Ops, tangguh dulu sesi reflection.

Raya aku kali ni, okay la. Banyak jalan. Compare dengan tahun-tahun lepas.

Erm.

Entri ni mau buat dalam points form la.

01. Aku tergerak untuk mention benda ni. Doesn't mean that you have the right to brag about your superiority that you have to belittle others. Aku mesti point out, aku ni termasuk dalam golongan kebanyakan. Tiada kejayaan yang membanggakan sangat. Setakat daki gunung Kinabalu 3kali tu *ahem* kira membanggakan sangat ka? Xpun.

02. Aku pernah terbaca status Gtalk seseorang (da lupa) lebih kurang ayat dia camni "Kenapa semua orang buat blog untuk cerita pasal diri sendiri?" Kamon la weh. Ko xsuka, xyah baca. Xda orang mau paksa ko baca blog-blog pasal hidup mati orang lain. Ko yang mengada-ngada bukak, lepas tu emo. Go get a life la. Or stick on reading bharian.com. Or Google News. Bak kata orang Sabah. Gete!

03. Aku memang ada soft spot seeing people dying. Aku layan Grey's Anatomy, finale season 5 yang George ngan Izzie mati tu. (Izzie xmati pun sebenarnya). Air mata aku jatuh mengalir. Adeh. Emo. Tapi serius. Aku xley tengok orang mati. Or nazak. Mungkin sebab aku pernah tengok arwah datuk aku nazak depan mata. Memang fobia. Nasib baik aku x ambil medic. BTW sorry to one of my friend, a medic student, whose patient has committed suicide under his care.

04. Aku rasa Megan Fox memang hot, tapi xda la hebat sangat berlakon. Aku paling suka tengok Cate Blanchett berlakon. LOTR (jadik Elf Queen, Galadriel), The Aviator (Katherine Hepburn), Babel (jadik wife Brad Pitt. Woot woot kata Encik Zaid), Elizabeth: The Golden Age (Queen Elizabeth I, memang genius) ngan Curious Case of Benjamin Button (Daisy Fuller). Motif mention benda ni? Entah. Haha.

05. Aku ada addiction yang sangat teruk. Nasib baik aku sedar. Sekarang aku tengah usaha buat The 7 Steps of Recovery. Harap-harap dapat sembuh.

06. Pokok rambutan depan rumah aku, berbuah lebat tahun ni. Selama 5 tahun, xpernah selebat camni. Paling last, tahun sebelum arwah datuk aku meninggal.

07. Oh, harga selonggok durian (3@4 biji) di Sabah, lebih kurang RM20 - RM25. Mahal seyh! Hantu-hantu durian dinasihatkan untuk tidak bermastautin di Sabah. Hahaha.

Sekian.

Terima Kasih.

Cheerio~

I Wish That I

2009-09-26T21:08:00.002+08:00

I don't like the person that I've become.

I need to be the person I was a year before.

I need strength to do that. A strong will.

I wish I can put the blame to others, but no, it is all on me.

Yeah. All on me.

Somehow, I hate the person I am now. I don't even recognize me anymore.

I need strength to change the things I can, to accept the things I can't, and the wisdom to differentiate between the two.

And wishing you all...

2009-09-21T22:13:00.004+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya.

Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Halalkan makan minum.

Harap xterlambat la ya. Tahun ni aku beraya di kampung ayah aku di Beaufort. So, aku xdapat online 4 hari. Fuh, agak terseksa hidup xda internet nih.

(Tanda-tanda orang addicted)

Selalunya, aku rasa kurang enjoy beraya di kampung. Tapi tahun ni, lain sikit. Xtau la sebab apa, tapi aku rasa happy pulak. Maybe sebab aku lama xbalik kampung ayah aku (setahun 2x kuikuikui), atau, sebab dapat tau aku bakal dapat makcik baru dalam masa 2-3 tahun lagi sebab pakcik hot aku buka bisnes resort, so da ada pendapatan stabil. Amiin.

Lepas tu, aku xsangka aku masih layak dapat duit raya. Haha. Fuh, berbaloi jugak maintain imej remaja nih. Hehe.

Tapi xsempat camwhore la. Ayah aku buat sesi fotografi ekspress pulak. Xsampai pun 20 minit. Haih. Ada la sikit gambar aku tangkap, tapi gambar satu family ada dalam kamera ayah aku, xsempat cilok lagi. Aku post gambar yang ada dalam kamera aku ja la. Just 2-3 macam tu. Asal ada. Xpayah banyak-banyak. Hahaha.

Clockwise start aku, uncle Wan, adik aku Bazli, kazen aku Syafik.

Adik beradik purple. Hoho

Uncle Bobby tengah praktis pegang keris replika untuk persediaan time sanding

Ok, cukup la gambar tu.

Dan,

*ahem*

Khas buat kepada *%#$ yang jauh dimata tapi dekat dihati,

Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir Batin. Saya tau saya nakal. Saya tau saya moody. Saya tau saya xperfect. Trimas sebab sanggup bersabar demi saya. Trimas juga sebab sanggup kirim present dari jauh. Trimas atas segalanya.

Hoho. Biarlah kenyataan di atas menjadi misteri kepada semua.

Opsss, terlebih sudah~

Enjoy this festive season with your loved ones, and drive safe.

Salam Aidilfitri y'allz.

Truth Hurts

2009-09-13T17:25:00.002+08:00

For about 3 years, I tried to find the title of this song. Haha. I still remember when I was in form 3, me and my besties listen to this song over and over again. Ahh, the good old days.

And just now, I googled something, and yeay, the title of the song came out. Hehe. Yeay to me.

Haha. I enjoyed listening to music since I was little. I still remember the lyric for As Long As You Love Me by BSB (I know, duh~). Haha. I actually stole my cousin's cassette collection when I was a kid. She had this massive collection of recorded song from the radio. And since during that time, she was in UiTM Shah Alam, and she left her collection at my granny's room, so I kinda borrow them.

Yeay.

Before this I managed to trace back the title of one of my favorite song, it was You by Point Break. Haha.

Oh well.

Yeay again :)

P/s: This Tuesday is my seminar presentation. Thursday my flight back home. Huhu~

Cheerio

Today, I Googled Myself

2009-09-07T09:43:00.002+08:00

And apparently, some convict in Negri Sembilan and this one guy in Brunei, have the same name as mine.

Gosh.

This is freaky.

Real freaky I tell you.

Feel free to try it yourself, see how rare your name is. I only share mine with another 2 guys, so I guess that can be considered as rare, eyh? But, a convict? Sigh.

Cheerio.

Space

2009-09-05T01:32:00.005+08:00

Is the one thing I'll give if that is what you want.

Everyone need some.

*cross fingers* and maybe some bit of luck for today. Got Petronas Ability Test at 2.30pm. Ganbatte!

Oh, I just found a future travelling mate, who also loves the idea of backpacking around the world just like me. I have to tell you, I had this dream for quite some time, but never met anyone who have the same one. At least up until yesterday. Haha, already we planned our journey. Excited wehh. Have to put up a fund for this. This is why I really want to start to get to work as soon as I finish studying. Oh dear, I really hope this can work because it is my dream since, forever.

And now, we need to find another one who have the same dream as ours. Or maybe, both of us can bring our bestest friend along? It is sort of important to have someone you are comfortable to hang out with, and with cool attitude to bring along. Me and my new future trip mate, I think we can get along very well. Haha.

Phew.

Last night talked to someone, or rather chat with someoe I know virtually. I was quite frustrated with something, and a bit under the weather. But at least I can let it out, although not all, or else I might lose my mind.

Hurm.

Did you ever been told that, you are this and this. I mean, okay, as example, someone said "hey, I think you are quite full with yourself", something like that. But you resent it, you turn on your defensive mode, and blablabla. You know what, he/she might be right on that. For myself, I know very well that I am moody type of person. I accepted that fact very well, but couldn't handle it gracefully, I admit. But at least, I know and accepted myself for who I am. Sometimes, people are so selfish and self absorbed, that they look past what everyone else think. I mean, hey, you heard the saying, "You know yourself better". But what about how othters see you. If they told you almost the same thing, then maybe you are really who they said you are. Agree?

Oh well, whatever.

I need to start studying for my test this afternoon. Goodluck for me!

-Pretending that I am all bright and shiny-

Cheerio

Ramadhan, The 13th

2009-09-03T06:50:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah, today is the 13th day of Ramadhan, and so far, so good.

Its been a while since I posted anything decent in my blog. Oh well. My life filled with loads of crappy stuff, and I tried my best not to show it to the world.

Anyways yesterday Ikhwan came down to UTP, and we able to hang out for about 3 hours. And honestly, it is a good thing he came. At least, I can share all my frustration, my problems, my concerns with him because honestly speaking, he is the only person who I can talk to about stuff, and care less about how he perceived it. We've done things we are not very proud of, each of us. And with that, there is no judgment.

And oh, I cut my hair short. Look a bit younger (eh?) hehe.

Cheerio

Super Duper Karut

2009-08-30T13:45:00.002+08:00

Again, today.

Sigh

heavy sigh

2009-08-29T21:49:00.004+08:00

Why am I the only who jumps up and down?

~~Sigh~~

I need to sleep it off. I don't need these mumbo-jumbos. It has ruin my happy mood.

Can you hear me scream? Can you?

Of course not, you silly.

6 Months

2009-08-27T21:39:00.001+08:00

27th of February 2009 - 27th of August 2009

Cheerio, mate

Don't Judge a Book by Its Cover

2009-08-25T07:27:00.002+08:00

Istilah ni selalu orang sebut-sebut. Yala, jangan fikir apa-apa sebelum kenal hati budi. Tapi, masalahnya, benda ni jarang sangat orang praktikkan. Aku pun kadang-kadang jadi gini jugak, aku ngaku. Tapi Doc Mat ada point out, manusia memang wired untuk jadi camtu. So memang susah untuk ubah, unless with self-conscious.

Hurm.

Ada orang cakap,

"Eh, aku nampak je camni. Tapi aku open minded, x judge orang tau"

Haha. Sure or not?!

Sebab tu kadang-kadang aku kena jadi 'kurang mesra' when it involves some part of my life. Aku xmau ramai sangat dapat sneak peek. Hehe, I have my own reasons for doing that. Sebab, aku kadang-kadang malas mau explain why and why after they know about it. Entah, memang da habit aku. Dan aku xsuka kalau orang fikir macam-macam.

Aku merepek. Aku xpasti kalau sesiapa yang baca ni, faham apa aku maksudkan. Haha. Just, aku mau bagitau, reason aku jadi 'kurang mesra' in several occasions. Bukan aku xmau jadi good host, but I prefer to reserve some part of my life only for myself, and for the selected few who I knew long enough to have faith in them. Or maybe few lucky ones. Sorry la kepada sesiapa yang faham post ni dan rasa-rasa aku buat camtu kat korang. Sorry sangat.

'till next time.

Cheerio~

Kenapa?

2009-08-23T13:17:00.000+08:00

Lama jugak idea aku terbantut. Tiada benda yang patut dikongsi. Hidup sangat bosan, dan membosankan.

Aku sekarang slowly apply kerja. Mana-mana company yang ada letak e-mail HR Dept, gerenti aku apply. Layan. Resume aku telah diperbaiki, lepas suami kazen aku bagi sindiran maut pedas dan nyaman. Okey, thanks bro. At least resume aku nampak professional sikit. Hehe. Nasib baik aku xmengarut letak gambar macam-macam. Resume aku, just nice. Tapi xsure la. Hurm.

Hari ni 2nd day Ramadhan. Plan, lepak dalam bilik. Hehe. Dota maybe? Semalam first day puasa, sungkai di Tesco sudey. Huhu.

Oh, tadi aku hantar housemate aku gi klinik. Officially, Yupa orang ke 5 masuk kuarantin. Haha. Nasib la. Sekarang ni musim hujan. Lagi teruk.

Hurm. Xda idea mau merepek apa.

Oh.

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak.

Cheers all

Kuih dan muih, beraneka macam. Makanlah jangan hanya dipandang

2009-08-15T12:26:00.005+08:00

Okay, maybe ramai orang aware aku kena kuarantin sebab suhu badan aku reach almost 39 degree C. And mostly suruh aku post dalam blog, so here I am, posting my condition. Hehe, as ya all wish.

Semalam aku demam tahap cipan. Pagi tu, rasanya okay lagi. Just pening. Then tengahari, jadi teruk. Jalan pun terhuyung-hayang cam orang mabuk tapai. So petang semalam, aku minta jasa baik Nabil, hantar aku gi klinik. Doktor siap inject aku kat bontot, bagi temperature turun sebab agak bahaya kalau over 38 degree. Eyy, doktor tu inject aku, xtutup pintu pun! Dahla luar examination room tu ramai girls. Siyot. I felt like I've been violated. Wahaha. BTW aku xsempat kemas barang. Kena tahan sehelai sepinggang la jawabnya. Nasib baik roomate tersayang datang membawa khabar gembira. Laptop ku~! Aku xmampu hidup kalau laptop tiada disisi. Haha. Lepas tu pakgad yang jaga blok kuarantin ni pun gelak tengok beg baju aku, besar gedabak macam orang mau lari dari rumah.

Oh ya, minggu depan, start Ramadhan. So, aku mau ucapkan untuk semua kawan Muslim, selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. Banyak-banyakkan ibadat. Semoga Ramadhan kali ni lagi mengancam dari tahun-tahun lepas, insya-Allah.

Doakan aku keluar cepat. Huhu. Serius bosan kena kuarantin.

Cheers

Qoute/1.0

2009-08-11T07:42:00.001+08:00

"Put yourself in other's shoe"

Geez, sounds ironic. Feels like it to.

Crap and Bull

2009-08-09T09:26:00.005+08:00

01. Is not feeling well. Sob sob.

02. Is currently thinking about finishing tons of assignments. Mind the word 'thinking' there. Means, slim chance I'd do them. Or maybe fat one. Dunno.

03. Oh crap! My FYP progress report is due this week.

04. Also in a dilemma. ~~The pain of choosing~~

05. Can't wait for Convofair this coming weekend.

06. Got my tongue twisted. "Three Swedish switched witches watch three Swiss Swatch watches switches. Which Swedish switched witch watch which Swiss Swatch watch witch?"

07. Craving for a good dose of chocolate milkshake. *Drool*

08. Feeling itchy on my face. Someone scratch it for me, pretty please? *Puss-in-boots-isque eyes in action*

09. Trying to hold on as long as I can, as hard as I can.

10. Lately, always pretending that everything is A-okay. But the truth is, they are not.

11. Trying hard not to piss anyone off.

12. Is looking up to someone who survived the shitty real world. You are my inspiration, dude. Seriously. Arrived in a totally new place with only small amount of money, and somehow you made it through. You are now officially my role model.

13. Is talking nonsense because I have such a crappy mood this morning.

14. I should sleep it off. Or shouldn't I?

15. What-so-ever

There Is a Land Called Passiv Aggrasiva

2009-08-07T07:50:00.003+08:00

Semalam aku gi tengok G.I Joe, sponsored by seorang teman yang sangat nakal. Aku baca review, agak huhahuha la jugak. Tapi, aku xrasa best sangat pun. Serius. Efek yang sangatlah tidak menarik, ketara sangat guna komputer. At least dalam Transformers, banyak moving parts so dorang dapat cover, nampak lagi real. G.I Joe agak buat aku kecewa.

Hurm.

Sedihnya xdapat jumpa orang tu, sebelum aku balik UTP. Serius sedih. Tapi apa boleh buat, kalau paksa pun, memang xpatut. Tapi xpa, ada masa lagi nanti. Maybe lepas raya, bila semua sudah stabil and in their place. Aku kena bagitau diri aku ni, bersabar lah. Don't ask too much as what have been given. Everyone has their own way to express it.

*Matt, you know what I'm talking about*

Oh, semalam aku experience something new. Ngahaha. Sweet gila la.

Lalu aku blushing sorang-sorang. All the memories flashes by.

Okok, cukup. Jangan compare. Nanti akan timbul perasaan tidak puas hati. Be thankful of what I have. Cherish the now.

Cheers

P/s: Esok balik ke pangkal jalan. Did I mentioned that?

Now, now fellas. Give me a break!

2009-08-05T18:28:00.002+08:00

Pagi tadi, aku terfikir mau buat post emo. Something is bothering me. Hurm.

It was all because of a promise.

Tapi apa-apa ja la.

Anyways, tengahari tadi, time aku tengah tidur, Myza buzz aku dalam YM, bagi link lagu. Whoaaa, Leighton Meester a.k.a Miss Blair Waldorf become a singer now. And it was not all that bad. Kudos, Blair.

Looks like her hotness meter just went up, up and away.

*Ouch, its hawt~!*

The song is called Good Girls Go Bad. Yeah, I loike it.

Pastu, lagu next dari band ni, Hollaback Boy. OMFG, gila lucu. Parody Hollaback Girl. Haha. Listen to it yourself.

Haha, video seterusnya, agak kontroversi gak. Viewer discretion is required because it contains *gulp* disturbing pictures. Tapi, still lucu. Aku memang ketawa non-stop dengar lagu nih. Haha. It is called I Kissed A Boy. Parody lagi, untuk lagu Katy Perry, I Kissed A Girl.

LMAO.

Sakit perut. Badmood aku terus hilang. Hahaha.

Cheers

:)

2009-08-03T10:07:00.002+08:00

Hehe.

Operation Nice Surprise yesterday was cancelled, but this morning, I am the one to be surprised. Haha. Looks like it now becomes Operation Super Duper Ultra Nice Surprise.

Another note to self: listen to Love Game - Lady Gaga.

Rawr~

Cheers